God and I have been struggling of late. Way too many times in the last few years, I've wondered what in the world He was thinking, making me a "jack of all trades" as my violin teacher once called me, but master of none.
What was the point? WHY am I blessed as I am, and how could my talents be useful for Him? What was the purpose of this drive to create, to draw, to do more in the world of the visual arts that seems to have overtaken me?
Undeniably, the variety of skills, passions, and interests I've cultivated have been incredibly useful in our homeschooling journey and as a support to my husband and our marriage. But, despite deep satisfaction in these areas, I still felt like all of these aspects needed to be focused in some way.
Along the way, I'd discovered the work of
Ingrid Dijkers, an art journalist who creates the most fantastic art journals that are so visually appealing that you want to just immerse yourself in them. I've become fascinated with the world of art journaling, but somehow that alone seemed rather empty and self-focused.
Recently, during my struggle with this set of questions, I began reading Dr. Henry Morris'
The Long War Against God. And while I greatly enjoyed the depth of the work, I suddenly started started seeing the concepts of Morris' book displayed as an art book. Images and ideas flooded my mind of how these ideas could be presented in some way that would intrigue people and interest them in the basic questions at the heart of culture and the spiritual warfare that we face.
But, I had *no* experience in creating anything like this! And what I was seeing in my mind was certainly *much* more complex than anything I could feasibly create at this point. However, I figured if God took six days to create the world, He'd give me the time and experiences needed to create tHis project!
And so it began. My first book is a faith journal, titled
Transcending Boundaries, a title both inspired by a recent set of sermons by
our pastor and by the fact that this book launches me past my own mental boundaries about being an "artist."
At this point, I've committed the project to God. What comes of it is His doing.